“Do not worry about what other people think of you. The work I am doing in you is hidden at first. But eventually blossoms will burst forth…”

This is a lesson I wonder if I will ever learn.

As a seventh grader, I was that girl. There was a group of other girls that passed around a notebook about me. They would go to the mall without me and run up to tell me on Monday morning. In spite of that, I still tried so hard to make them like me.

I invited them to my 14th birthday party, and ate my cake alone in the kitchen while they locked my bedroom door to have a fight.

I was kind to them even when they passed around the notebook making fun of me. There was something inside me that wanted so much to be liked by them. I worried all the time what they thought about me.

It would be nice if I could tell you that I am past all that.

Nope. I still worry about what people think of me. I don’t want to be the late one or the forgetful one. I want to be the one who always remembers and is always kind. I want to be fun and exciting!

When I think about truly living out God’s plan, I realize there is a risk. Others may label me as trying too hard, too religious, fake, or unrealistic.

I tend to make things about my strength and my goodness, instead of recognizing that all good things come from Him.

Any ounce of goodness found in me is because I am His precious daughter. Any hint of kindness comes from my attempt to reflect His glory in a very dull and cloudy mirror.

I will wait. I will wait for the flowers to blossom. (I’m pretty excited about those flowers – I think an entire field of daisies would be lovely!)

What are you waiting on this week?