When you tell people that you had a baby at 43 years old or that you have an 18 year age span between your children, you get a lot of questions and even more looks of concern.

If you know our story, you know what an absolute blessing and surprise Riley, Mary Alice, and Sebastian are. But as our journey unfolds each day, I can tell you there is nothing more healing while I miss my big girl, than giving this sweet thing a bath. After I dry him off, he wraps his arms around my neck and plays with the little hairs that have fallen out of my ponytail.

He is sweet and kind and so gentle. He love puppies and water. His fingers are long and his hands are strong. I wonder if he will play the piano just like his biggest sister.

His giggle keeps the mood light in the house and his hair is perfect to breath deep and create a new cloud of memories.

He keeps me company after I put Mary Alice and Riley to bed. He is a gift to keep me moving forward and to remind me that my work is not done.