This is how my family looked in 2012. (Photo credit: Blue Lily Photography) Julia was born in 2000. Nate was born in 2003. After Nate, Brian and I struggled with miscarriages. My dear friends Heather and Hannah encouraged me to write down their names as part of my...
Miscarriage
Love, Loss, and Awareness
The day comes each year, October 15th. It is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day. Olivia, Isaiah, Matthew, Violet, Samuel, Alice, and Susan wait for us in heaven. The further I get from the dates of the miscarriage, the less qualified I feel to speak of these...
Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day
I thought about letting yesterday go by without saying anything, but then I read Rachel's post. I remembered the comfort and bond I felt reading stories of women who had been through exactly what I had been through. I remember feeling like I was taking a deep breath...
Happy Monday!
It has been so rainy around here... Really wonderful for this desert girl! It makes me slow down and be thankful for the blue sky that is around 99% of the time. This weekend was amazing. My elbow feels better. I met Annalea in person! (say what?! ) To meet someone...
Coffee Date: One for the itty bitty baby…
It is hard to believe that two years ago that I learned that I lost the twins. If we had coffee today, I would tell you that I didn't even wake up today remembering this. In a strange twist of events, I was participating in looking into what I posted two years ago and...
Rejoice in the Lord always
"Rejoice in the Lord always, and again I say, Rejoice!" Philippians 4:4 Grandma always said that when you aren't exactly sure what to say, you should just Praise Him. Today was a long day. A little not great news at the doctor. I've been overly tired since the...
The Picnic Table
After a miscarriage, I am physically exhausted. My body is so tired and it is all I can do to keep my eyes open some days. Brian had found a picnic table on freecyle and a few Saturdays ago I woke up from a nap to some strange noises... He had Nate and a friend...
Miscarriage and The Rules around Sharing
If you know me, you know that I struggle with miscarriage. Twins in September of 2011. One the Christmas Eve of 2010. Two before that. And again... again. July 21st, 2012 another sweet Brian and Katie baby decided that heaven was way cooler. They were right. But oh,...
One year later…
These are all pictures from one year ago. One year ago, I had a miscarriage. This miscarriage turned into a scheduled D&C... that turned into a trip to the emergency room the night before the D&C. I learned that I had miscarried twins. That would mean that...
Punch you in the gut moments…
That is what my sister-in-law calls them. I was sitting on the porch in Carmine, Texas over Christmas vacation. My first moment alone in a few weeks. Birds were singing. The sun was setting. The wind was picking up. And I realized. I had lost three children in the...